#123 My Self-Critic

MY SELF-CRITIC (JUDGE & JURY) HATES ME!

SHE IS ACTIVE ALL THE TIME. OF COURSE SHE IS TELLING THE TRUTH. IF SHE ISN’T THEN WHY IS SHE DOING THIS TO ME? WHAT WOULD BE HER MOTIVE FOR LYING?
She says that I am stupid, stupid, stupid; that I am fat, lazy and weak. She says that I have no right to feel the way I do; that I am a little kid with my emotions.
Also she says that I don’t deserve to be happy; that I don’t even know how to be happy. She says that I am too sensitive. She says that I am not good enough and that I never do anything right. She says all my efforts are embarrassing; that I will screw up eventually so it isn’t even worth trying.
And she says that the world is not a safe place and that I mustn’t let people “ in”. She says that people don’t like me or wouldn’t if they got to know me better. She says people are just being polite. She says that I can keep bad stuff from happening by worrying constantly about everything.
Then she says that hurting myself will make it all go away. She says that I am too angry and I will be punished for it.
Of course, she says that I am much too needy; and I am not, nor was I ever, loveable.
She says that I am not allowed back in my body.

IF ANY OF THESE ARE LIES....WHY CAN I NOT STOP THEM???

BECAUSE I HAVE NOT SUFFERED ENOUGH?
BECAUSE I HAVE NOT BEEN SEEN TO HAVE SUFFERED ENOUGH?

(NO POINTS FOR SELF-INFLICTED SUFFERING, OBVIOUSLY)
RYLEE