#25 My Fragile Self

my self
is a fragile self
sometimes
i feel it weakening
i hear it cracking

there is no warning
but there must be reason
a thousand reasons
each one different
a look a word a feeling

my self
my fragile self
collapses into itself

rejection stalks me
fear overwhelms me
despair crushes me

i wish i could fix this flaw in me
i am tired of breaking so easily

my self
my fragile self
deserts me
yet again

i have to chase after it
gather up the pieces
stick them together again
the best way i can

and go on

until i hear that cracking sound again

and I know
my self
my fragile self
is about to
destroy me
all over again.